Point of God

Today and yesterday I wasn't feeling very good. My stomach was killing me. I didn't feel like eating yet I knew if I didn't eat, then I may just pass out. On top of that, I was tired, but didn't want to sleep. I was bored, yet didn't want to do anything. All I wanted was for my mom to hug me. I wanted her to wrap me in her arms and tell me that it was going to be okay. That it would all be over soon. When I'm sick I know my mom or somebody is going to be home, maybe not in the same room, but they are there if I need them. When I am sick, I hate being alone. I want someone to be there with me. After all, misery loves company. I hate being in quarantine, suffering all alone from the pain you are feeling, trying to avoid the pain by sleeping or watching movies. All I want when I'm sick is my mom, that's it.

I realized that the feeling of just wanting someone to say that it will be okay, is the exact same feeling God wants us to have toward Him. He is not just a God who created the world. He is not just a God who sent His son for us. He is not just a God who was in the beginning, is there now and always will be there. He is a God who wants us to run to Him when we are sick or weary or just cannot take it anymore. He wants us to just want Him. He wants us to just jump into Him and let Him carry us for a little while and to assure us that it will be okay in the end.

He is a God who is our father. If we cannot run to Him in our times of trouble, then what is the point of calling him of father. What makes him any different than a god of gold? If we cannot communicate with him and we cannot let him carry us for a while until we are strong again, then why do we call him our God. Isn't that point of God? Not only to worship him for what he has done, but to have a relationship with him.

A child has a special relationship with his mother and father. A christian should have a special relationship with their heavenly father.

The point of God is to have a relationship with him. That relationship where you can talk about anything. That relationship where you feel comfortable. That relationship where all you want when you are weak, is Him. That relationship is the point of God.

Change and Endings

Change. Hard word for most. Some people like change. Some people are used to change because they have never had a life that has a constant. Some, like me, hate change, scared of change perhaps.

Endings. Yet another hard word. Endings can be good. Like, an ending to a miserable time. But then again, there is always bad in something good and vice versa. Endings mean that something is over, never to come again. Whatever is ending will never happen again. That moment is lost, it’s gone. You may visit it again but that exact moment will never occur again. You may have heard that endings are just the beginning of something new, but maybe something new isn’t what we need, or maybe it’s something we don’t want but something we blindly, but desperately need.

Change and endings go hand in hand. We are afraid of change because we know with change, comes an ending to something and with an ending comes something new. We hate endings because they more than likely cause tears. But tears are simply things that wash out our eyes so we can see clearly again. So maybe, endings and change are good for us. But knowing that definitely does not make things easier. Perhaps endings are a chance for us to start over, to have a clean slate. Endings give us a chance to become who we wanted to be all along and not what we had become. Perhaps endings really are we want, we just don’t know it. Or, maybe you do want an ending, but you’re scared. You’re scared of what you don’t know. “Replace fear of the unknown with curiosity”.

Maybe, change is good in another way. We tend to resent God for causing change and for endings. For instance, if someone that means so much to you dies, who do we blame? Most likely God. After all, he is the mighty man who can do anything. But do you think that change is not a punishment but it is a way to get his creations to cling to him. Because more than anything that’s what he wants for us. He wants us to cling to the one thing in this world that will not change, nor end. Maybe, just maybe that is the whole point of change and endings.

Change- chance for us to cling to the unchanging God

Ending- chance for us to start over and be who we really want to be

Ultimate Questions

What do you want in life? Who do you want to be? Those may just be the hardest questions that you face in life. Those questions determine who you are going to be for the rest of your life. It is not just a question that you would ask a kid in kindergarten, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” That is the question we ask little kids. We face them with pressure of who are you going to be for the rest of your life at such a young age. Sure, it’s good for them to dream and to want something. But, in reality, is what we want then, really what we are going to want later. I think not. I remember when I was second grade, my teacher asked us to journal about what we wanted to be when we grew up. I was unsure, so naturally I put basically every career possible on my paper, from photographer to doctor, from author to actress. I had no clue what I wanted. Lately though, I’ve been wondering, who am I going to be? What do I want in life? What are my standards? Is it possible to honestly know what you want? Is it possible for someone to go after their dream at a very young age and make it? Why can’t it be possible? There are so many questions in life and if you know what you want without a question, then go after it. That’s what I’ve discovered.

Life is hard. Dreams are dreams for a reason. Dreams are designed to look easy so that we will work hard for that one easy part. But truth is, the part getting to the dream is our nightmare. In order to get your dream to become a reality, you have to go through the nightmare that’s a reality for so many. So many people never experience their dream because of the nightmare phase. But if you know what you want, then face the nightmare phase head on. Dreams are there to remind you of how it will be. Some may say that dreams are just a myth, but I say, you cannot dream something that couldn’t happen to somebody. People say that they will never win the lottery, but somebody will. If it can happen to somebody, then why can’t it happen to you? Why can’t your dream be a reality for you? Why does your dream have to be taken by somebody else? In fact, I don’t even think that somebody takes your dream. If it’s your dream and somebody else accomplishes it, it’s not because they stole it, it’s because you gave it to them. You gave it to them when you decided not to prepare for it. You gave it to them when you decided that it was impossible, so why try. Life is hard. But, dreams are worth it.

So the question comes back around, what do you want? Who do you want to be? When you figure that out, then go after it. Stop wasting time saying that it’ll happen someday. By saying that, you are already beginning to give somebody else your dream and what’s rightfully yours.