For love of theatre

Musical theatre is a something that my family does together. However, two of my sisters just went off to college so it is just me, my brother and my dad who are extremely involved in our community theatre. My mom helps out with offstage stuff too. I am a complete theatre fanatic. New York City is the ultimate place to be, broadway music is my favorite, and yes, I do perform shows in my room all by myself. I will listen to an entire Broadway soundtrack and imagine the show being performed in my head. It is incredible. People don't give stage performers as much credit as they deserve. The people on stage during a show are triple threats: actor, singer, and dancer. I wish I could be in every show, but that is just not possible. But, I dream of being on broadway. What performer doesn't? Broadway is the ultimate stop for any musical theatre fanatic. When I listen to a soundtrack, I think about who composed the music and who matched lyrics to the beat of the music. Then I think about the person singing the words and I imagine what it would be like to learn music that no one else has ever heard before and then perform for enormous crowds. For ballads, I think about the emotion that the performer has to put in to portray the story properly. With upbeat songs, I imagine that insanely awesome dances that choreographer made. See, with Broadway music, it is not just music and lyrics, it is a story. The music can be dialogue between two or more people, or reveal the emotions of a character. Musical theatre is my passion and I look forward to every show I take part in.

Pain is...

Pain is something that all living things experience. Everyday you will experience some amount of pain- whether it be a heavy or small pain. Pain is still pain. I am writing this blog because pain seems to be surrounding me. Once things in my life begin to go exactly as I plan them, pain comes in and ruins it. Or atleast, that's how it seems. Of course, I am only in highschool so I realize that I have yet to experience terrifying pain but I still feel pain. More pain than I want to feel. Yes, pain is good. Or atleast, some pain is good for you. It builds character and makes you learn from your mistakes. Humans need pain. We need to feel emotions other than happiness. When we feel pain, it reminds us that we are still living and that we are not perfect.

Now the pain that I keep experiencing is not healthy. It is pain that comes from highschool drama. This pain is something that I can fix. But yet, I tolerate it. It's almost like I settle for it. I just accept it. I wonder why I don't let this pain go. I think that sometimes we get scared to move forward. We are afraid of letting go of something even though we know that what is in store will be so much better for us. I wonder why we do that. Why do we have such a hard time letting things that are bad for us go? I think that when we begin to let something go, we feel so much pain that we decide to run back into the trap that caused the pain instead of moving forward and away from that pain. Why do we do this? Why do we allow ourselves to settle for the easy thing?

Pain is realizing that what we once had is not what will have.